Toronto rooftops

I’m still here

I’m alive. I’m still here. I moved back to Toronto mid-April, so I’ve been around for a while now. I just haven’t had the mental space to sit down and write down what it has felt like so far.

But I’ll be blunt. Moving back to my parents has been absolute shit. I fucking hate it. I hate this house and everything that it represents. I moved away to leave this place. To leave this tense atmosphere. I hate that I’m back in this house.

I have much more to say about this, but I’m going to hold off until I have moved out for good. It might be awhile because finding a job in Toronto is always a challenge – it’s easier in London, UK, believe it or not – but I am going to make this promise right here to make sure I get those thoughts written down on this blog one day.

In the meantime, here is a video of a cover performance that I absolutely adore. I love the chemistry between Jessie J and Luke James in this video. I love how adoring they look at each other. It’s a sort of relationship I want with someone one day.

P.S. The photo of Toronto up there as the featured image wasn’t taken by me. You can find it here in Matt Quinn’s gallery on Unsplash.

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