Category: Personal

St. James' Park

Wake up to new perspectives

It’s my birthday today. I’m typing this while sitting on the bed of my Airbnb, a place I’m staying at temporarily until my new flatshare is ready for me to move in.

It’s been a hectic couple of months. It feels like a lot has happened.

Dawson's Creek Cast

The hours of “Dawson’s Creek”

Apparently, this year is the 20th anniversary year of the TV show Dawson’s Creek. As I type this, I am listening to Paula Cole’s “I Don’t Want To Wait” on loop. What a classic.

I didn’t realize it at the time, but it was a big part of my preteens, as it was really the only TV show I liked and was able to watch as soon as I got home from school. Between the hour of me returning home from school to the hour of my dad returning home from work, Dawson’s Creek was sort of an escape from reality, my window to how the “real world” worked outside of my strange ugly first generation Asian family culture.

The British drinking culture

That didn’t take long, did it? I’ve only been here in the UK for five months and already I’m cringing at another drinking event with colleagues or with friends. British drinking culture is truly something else.

I’m saying this because it’s December, and people all around are more festive than ever. There are more drinking events, more parties, more celebrations, etc. I’m slowly getting exhausted by all the social activities.

A return to an old practice in a new world

Hello hello!

Yes, I realize that it’s been over seven months since my last post on this website. I never forgot about this blog – it’s difficult to forget the fact that you have four years worth of personal journal entries floating around somewhere on the Interwebs – but I just haven’t gotten around to updating the site like I had promised at the beginning of 2017. A lot has happened since then.

Walk away

A lot has happened in the past two months, and I’ve learned a great deal of what I want out of life. Not saying that I’m not an ambitious person, because I think if you were to speak to any of my friends, all of them would say I am a very ambitious person, but I think that sort of ambition needed a little more maturity and a little more wisdom. I’m still not there yet, but I’m a lot closer to that sort of state than ever before.

One of the main events that happened recently is that I finally moved out.

We dream

We dream so big because we don’t yet realize — we’re too young to realize — that those “one big things” are actually composed of hundreds and thousands of daily small things that must be silently and unceremoniously maintained over long periods of time with little fanfare.
Mark Manson

Houseplants, dogs, and Kate Spade

My parents splurged $50 on a houseplant (from IKEA), and you know what they said in their defence? They compared it to me wanting a dog. How does that even work?! We don’t even own a dog. That argument only works if we had a dog, but we don’t… Wait, does this mean they’re OK with me getting a dog now?!

Holiday watchlist workout

Happy holidays! I don’t know what to write, but I feel compelled to publish a post to celebrate the holiday season.

Life has been good. I’ve mainly been at home catching up on my massive film and TV watchlist. If you follow me on Letterboxd or on Trakt, you’ll know that these watchlists are incredibly long. I’ll be pretty busy next year, so I’m trying to get as much crossed off as I can. I’m not a very patient person, so whenever I’m watching a drama that’s dragging on, I just skip over episodes in the middle of the series.

I’ve been watching more Chinese TV dramas lately too. I’m really looking forward to Wallace Chung’s new drama My Sunshine! It premieres next month, and it also stars Tang Yan, who is ridiculously pretty and looks a little similar to Jane Zhang.

Anyhow. Hope everyone is having a good holiday season as well!

Oh, the places you’ll go!

Look at that! Two blog entries in one week! This must be some sort of world record! I kid, I kid… But before I dive into today’s blog, I just wanted to let everyone know – because obviously, my blog sees loads of regular visitors, so that’s why I’m using the word “everyone” – which reminds me that I haven’t set up Google Analytics on this new domain yet – that I reread my previous blog entry and made some edits to it. My blog entries are statistically unproven 99% word vomit, which means I don’t reread or edit my blogs after I click “publish”. Apologies if you’ve noticed any pronounced grammar errors in my past entry!

Anyhow, I met up with two of my longtime friends today, and on my way home, the get-together made me daydream about all the places I wanted to visit in my 20s and 30s.

Instagram

  • Did you even see it, if you didn't see it in a theatre during public release? 😏 That mahjong scene still made me tear up the second time around. And definitely appreciated Henry Golding even more the second time around too. Thank you, @warnerbrosuk, for bringing the UK release date forward two months. I can't imagine what the wait would've been like if #CrazyRichAsians was to be released in November like it was originally planned. 🇬🇧 Also, is my skin really that dark in real life?! Good grief, I tanned some several shades this summer. 😩
  • Storybook vibes. I want to go back. 🏞️ (Note to self: I think the poor photo quality is because I was on a motor boat that legit barrelled down the fjords at like record speed, so fast the camera couldn't stabilize fast enough. 😭)
  • It was a sunny Sunday in Brighton. But in just one week, summer is over. Back to miserable ol' English weather... 🇬🇧
  • Repsweating: "It's the idea of sweating it out over representation, that feeling of: 'I don't even need to like this thing, but I need it to win.'"⁣ 💪🏻
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That was me going into the movie. I've been positively obsessed with this movie for the past two months - reading all the spoilers, following all the critical reviews, checking box office numbers every day... I needed it to succeed in North America because I knew that if it succeeded in Canada and the United States, it meant that we could get more of these projects. More Asian actors in the Western hemisphere starring in Western film projects. ⁣
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What I didn't expect though, was how anxious I would actually end up feeling when I sat there in the cinema lobby watching all the audience members file in into the movie. Majority of them were white. There were Asians (East Asians), sure, but most of them were white. When I realized this, after having sat down in the theatre, I started feeling a bit nervous. Would this UK audience react to this movie the way the US audiences have? Would this UK audience react to this movie the way I wanted them to? Would they understand the references? Would they get the jokes?⁣
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If I was watching this movie in Toronto, I wouldn't have been as nervous. I knew that the movie would succeed. East Asians are everywhere in Toronto; we are the majority visible minority group. And having grown up in a multicultural Western city like Toronto, we were like Asian-Americans. We would come out to support this, no question about it... ⁣But I'm not in Toronto, I live in London UK now.⁣
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I've been through so many experiences here in the UK where I've been made to feel ashamed of my culture, that when I sat in the theatre, I realized that this film experience would be way more personal than I thought it would be. Now that it has succeeded in the States, and the sequel is a guarantee, I needed an almost all-white British audience, in a country vocally proud of its imperialist history, to really embrace and enjoy this movie. ⁣
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#CrazyRichAsians
  • Squid and shellfish risotto. 🐚
  • When #London gives you free hamburgers, you go queue up and eat them. 🍔 #GeniusGlutenFree